back from situation

Just back from sit test. which is kinda fun despite its agonizingly fast fast march in the morning. The rest of it was pretty slack, walking from station to station doing rambo missions. but sit test did set me thinking about leadership school again. Once i had given it up, due to my poor physical abilities, but now i think being able to lead, its an interesting proposition. but still, i dun think i am able to take the training even if they let me in. Imagine, here am i struggling in even BMT. not to say command school. and then there is the time prospect, having already very very limited time out, i am already busy, can i still go to command school and waste further more of my time? there are people out there whom deserve more of my time but sadly i couldn't give it to them. so yeah.

and just some thoughts i formulated during field camp, some of those sudden sparks of brilliance that even i get suprised by my brilliance. like 'you have to trust to trust someone' or 'those who fears love, loves fear' or ' there are so many of us, and we could not expect everyone to have the same level of morale, or for everyone to sing on and on and on for the distance, but what i can do is to sing whatever i can, to care for as many as i can, to raise the morale of as many as i can and then, we will pull through.'. haha. and thks U4, for being such understanding section mates, will never forget you guys man, even after pop or anything. yeah.

again,
by the time you read this,
i shall have drifted off to sleep in camp.
how i wish i could need not go.
or you too, to not leave.
to hold you,
in my arms forever,
and to hear your voice,
like i used to everyday.
how i missed those good old days,
whole days of you.
but given a choice,
i will still choose the present.
For its good ain't it?
this feeling. and yes.
if i can help it,
it'll never end.

we took our time so far.
and i guess we shall continue to do so.
for that is what the stars have said,
isn't it?
this pace is good.