good day.

Just finished playing football and once again retired in front of the computer in my '2nd home', as others in the medical center call it.

It has been a day that is perhaps slightly better than usual. maybe cos of the football. woke up feeling kinda down cos of CCT or close combat training. or swinging-bolsters-at-each-other-wildly sessions but it was the first time in months(?) in which i did so much physical activity in a day. haha. and true to my curse, i injured myself playing football again. though it was just minor scraping on the skin. hurts though. But performed reasonably well i guess.

went back to the ordinarypeoplechangetheworld website again cos i guess its kinda inspirational and read its stories under 'Good Deeds'. kinda inspiring.

was just talking to friends about my retirement plan again or more exactly why i want to go overseas one day. well. to tell the truth. life here's too good for me. Good in the way that we are monitored everywhere and no one could commit a crime. but it also means that all of us are monitored by the tons of cameras around. 'Big brother' anyone? Good in the sense that pramatism rules in singapore and that practical solutions are found for all problems, but so pragmatic is the system and the people that a toe out of line or a want to be out of the box may sometimes be unwelcomed. Good in the sense that we have 24 hours excitement and activities, and lights that illuminate every part of the city. But it also means that there isn't a time where everyone rests together and that natural lights of the skies are outshone every moment. Good in the way that the country teaches the people to fish, instead of giving them a fish. But sometimes, men just need that one fish to get back on their feet again.

So don't get me wrong, Singapore is a good place with great people all around. and i'm goddamn hapy to be here since i ever been. And perhaps its the 'grass on the other side is always greener' syndrome, but i guess its something like chocolates perhaps? can't find something to compare it with. but its one of those things that you didn't want at first but once you tasted it you want it more kinda things? Guess my short stint overseas have did me more impact than i thought it had. Singapore i guess, is, and always will be my home, just like malaysia have been for my parents and China to my gramps, But like them and a million other species not restricted to humans, i guess its about moving to somewhere more suitable to grow, develop and perhaps pass the baton to the next generation. Ok. that's thinking too far. But yeah, if i was to develop on that. I would want to raise my offsprings in the sunrise unhindered by buildings or cargo ships or floating kelongs, and would like to retire in sunsets of the same settings. I want to raise them at schools which care about what they like, instead of what will be 'good' for them, and i would like to retire where the government cares and provides for the old like me, heathcare, accesibility, kindness. I would want to raise them to understand the ideals of freedom and individuality, and i would want to retire in the ideals of those.

that is one long post by recent standards.

haha.

and thus here i should stop. its been kinda nice typing. here and there. haha.

one last thing. QOTD '*looks in the skies in dissapointment... and after awhile lowers it back cos my neck hurts*'

haha.