Life: A Meaning.

Just watched Les Choristes on Arts central after missing two screenings of it during choir last time. brings back great old memories.

And was just further developing my thoughts today as i went around my daily business. And i have a hypothesis. or just an idea. about well, the meaning of life. I thought that perhaps life didn't have a meaning, if i did exist as the personification i wrote yesterday? Perhaps she's too looking for her own meaning? and to look for meaning in her is to perhaps the same as looking through the mirror, trying to find meaning in the reflections, which now it seems, sometimes possible i guess. But yeah. what if your Life is trying to search for a meaning for itself just as you go around searching a meaning for it.

Another thought. You don't 'lead a life' for you can't. Sometimes, yes, you can, but at others, it seems that the life is leading you. And some say that's just cos you are a loser, but look at all the evidences, does it not suggest that Life ain't to be 'led' like a dog?... For more info, look at the previous post.

Feeling philosophical this wkend. somewhat. perhaps its the full moon. perhaps its loneliness. or perhaps its both. kinda like this feeling actually. makes me feel useful and alive, and perhaps in a way, special. though i'm sure that a thousand others around the world are feeling the same way, and perhaps everyone does, one time or another, or more often than that. For I had the wierdest thought today on the bus, and its not the first time i thought of it, or more accurately someone enlightened me to it. For all around me, today, everyday, are individuals, with feelings, lives, dreams, thoughts, ideas perhaps none less philosophical or whimsical than mine, and somehow to others like me, they don't look it. They look 'normal'? If that's the word. And Its wondorous if you see the magnitude of it. Thoughts, dreams flying everywhere. If i could harness those dreams, man, I'll be the richest man on earth. And yeah. as a man, just find that my vision is narrow in this sense. I mean, i don't even know a micron of what everyone is thinking. And we are on the same bus. next to each other. chew on that.

On less philosophical stuff. today's been pretty fine. cept for the morning part where i took the wrong bus and thus had so much more time to think of the above.

till nxt time.