twisted time.

time moves in a curious way.. it slows down to a crawl during some days and suddenly speeds up with an exponential acceleration. and now suddenly i am faced with one wk left to CT2. lolz..

have done most of the stuff.. or at least i believe i have done most of the stuff.. or more like i think that i feel that i believe i have done most of the stuff.. or something like that. lolz.

sian. now abit scared of the CT sia.. like no amount of preparation is enuff.. esp dear o' econs.. like i can make out stuff.. but really cant remember alot of things when i do not see them... seriously.. if one day i become minister of education.. i am gonna scrap this scrap subject.. lolz..

sian..

still idling around.. even though time is slowly seeping away.. lolz..

sian..

till nxt time..

home alone

and so my 2 days alone in singapore are over after my parents returned from malaysia today. or more accurately. just now.

haha. it has been fun. staying up late till 2. and stuff.. and totally no one around to disturb me.. though the sound of silence is quite unbearable.. yeah. silence has a sound.. and when one is alone, one can hear it. The murmur of fans, the bristling of leaves, the beating of the heart... etc. haha.. when u are alone.. you see more... lolz..

now think sandman is seriously cool. lolz.. u all should read his quotes here.haha Coolness. if only literature was like this i would have taken literature instead of kuku econs. haha.. econs is seriously difficult thing to study.. one chapter of econs is like equivalent to the whole of organic chem.. seriously. screw econs. And THANK YOU. Mr Keynes, Mr Friedman, Mr Ball. and all of you who contributed one way and another to making econs econs. you have just made at least one life miserable.

"Desire… Never a possession, always the possessor, with skin as pale as smoke, and eyes tawny and sharp as yellow wine: Desire is everything you have ever wanted. Whoever you are. Whatever you are. Everything."- a quote from Sandman.. alongside many others which i think is cool..

anyway.. an update on the current situation for my probable NZ thingy. it turns out that it is not that confirm i would be going anyway. cos my father just accepted a job offer on marina bay sands or something. which is quite cool cos that means i will be related somehow to the IR again. lolz. cos its good pay and it would be better to work and mayb send gimme a wider choice on where to go anyway. lolz. and so i continue my journey towards.. dunno.. destiny?

one day i will figure that out.. and dunno.. attempt anything... cos "It is sometimes a mistake to climb, it is always a mistake never even to make the attempt". and yeah.. if it was a mistake.. at least i would know that in some parallel universe where i might have been wiser.. i would have chose the right thing.. haha.. but now.. this universe is the most important one.. lolz..

and... getting fed up with the whu constant link with darren bent.. i mean he is good.. but not 18m good.. at most maybe i think 10m? 12m? would be reasonable although already expensive. and he is not worth 6 Benayouns... and benayoun is definitely not worth only 3m. at least 15m i say. maybe a bit over expensive.. but i think he is good and we should keep him... and dun buy anyone for 18m. unless its tevez we are talking about.. or quaresma... haha.

sian..

nth much else.. my tiempo spoilt.. now need a new pair of tiempo.. or mayb 2. haha.. wan the black and white one.. seriously cool. black tick on white... haha.. will see how...

mayb catching another movie tomorrow... hope so.... oceans.. here i come.. and wait a while silver surfer.. haha.

till nxt time...

withdrawal

sian... its now the period of time where i suffer from withdrawal symptoms.. lol.. from football.. and i will like check soccernet. kumb. and co like 6-7 times a day. waiting for the deal that has yet occur.. cos unlike Man Utd which has somewhat completed their summer signings.. Us West Ham and Arsenal( zhou n ran) fans.. have each only signed one player.. haha. and fabianski or scott parker although maybe good signings.. arent exactly your signing of the season... lolz.. i was hoping more like saviola or something type.. lolz.. but dunno...

haha.. anyway.. for those of u who hadnt heard of this webbie.. i shall introduce it to you.. it is a great joke site esp if you noe football... haha.. damn funny.. i read already i laugh super much.. haha.. its called... football-rumours... LOL.

did some studying wif zhou today at my place.. lolz. quite funny... afternoon played some flash game with him.. which was lol.. but Fun.. haha. its called boxhead.. click to play haha.. damn funny.. and i n zhou was like trying to smash that high score.. lolz..

sian....

haha..

oh ya.. 2 of my fave teams.. whu n roma will be playing in a friendly.. so a good preseason to look forward to then.. haha.


till nxt time..

kick

just went and kick wif zhou, ran, reub, and his bro, and his bro's friend.. haha. damn fun. esp after so long neva kick wif them... haha.. scored 1 rubbish goal.. like always.. haha.. but missed dozens of sitters.. haha.

sian.. back to mugging i guess.. bit pleased with my own progress... so far somewhat completed physics... and left with those APGP stuff+ the everpresent differenciation n integration... did some chem.. some econs... haha.. should be able to finish wif 2 wks left.. haha..

sian...
i dont forgive easily... but i forget
haiz..


haha.. was reading through some of my archives.. cos since i mayb going back to nz.. i wanna noe wad i once felt and like how to change.. haha. and came across quite a few things again... haha... some things quite funny sia... but i found out most of the things i wanted to do i did.. haha.. cept for owning a lambo.. lolz.. and oh ya... to continue from some old post... if i got a son he would be named Diego.. and if its a girl her name would be Annasophia... after the name of the girl in The reaping and Bridge to Terabithia..

and oh ya... i wasnt the best in PW despite my grand target last time.. haha.. lolz.. and i shall try to be more direct with my posts.. cos some of the things now i noe got some hidden meaning but even i forgot... haha..

anyway..haha.. quote from diego archives..."save some today for tomorrow. You neva noe when u will have a empty day."...


till nxt time..

resurfaced

lost avenues and hopes are resurfacing.. lolz. like the NZ one. lol. now contemplating a move there again.. cos if i am gonna study medcine.. there is the most probable route i could go.. if i do not get any scholarship or anything to finance me. cos studying medcine in aust will cost 450k or nearly half a million sing. and nz.. if i go as a 'local' student will only cost a third of that sum. lolz.

so now thinking... roads have sunk before and are rebuilt.. perhaps this is one of those....

and i miss the beutiful sky there.. and the stars.... and the landscape. mayb i juz went in at the wrong place at the wrong time... or mayb i am ready to give it a second chance again... last time i went as a human.. but now.. i will go as a champion.. one who has potential to overcome fear..a green lantern.

maybe its not the last time i would blog under the stars..

but anything would have to wait at least 2 yrs. cos of NS. lolz. but not plenty of time to think.
cos the thing expires 2008.. and i have to do a decision by this yr.. or heck this mth.. i must decide. crossroads again...
How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
How many paths does a man has to choose
Before he can see the light?

well the 2nd line was added by me.. and well the answer my friend is blowing in the wind.. the answer is blowing in the wind.... and listen to the wind i shall.... but there is no wind now cos i am in a room.. lolz..

anyway.. went watch shrek wif zhou reub n ran juz now.. For those who have saw it. congrats, you like us, have been conned. For those who hadnt let you be warned.. I am not one who critisize lots of movies.. in fact i like most movies i watch.. but this is a waste of money. just wait for it on channel 5.

sian..

黑色幽默


zzz.. should go slp soon...

till nxt time...

忘词

lolz.. just found out Keira Knightley is a hammer too... haha.





sian... no mood to do anything... no mood to study.. only feel sleepy... and tired.. and full...
说到底，我还是个懦夫。
爱真的需要勇气。
许多事，我不敢做。
许多时，错过了不会再来。
我只好默默等待，
等待着下一次的到来。
但下一次何时才来呢？
来了，我是否又会害怕?
haiz... sian..

till nxt time


嗯嗯搭啦我又忘了
我应该应该应该应该唱什么
我应该应该应该应该怎么作
嗯嗯搭啦想起来了
我好像好像好像好像应该说
我好想好想好想好想对你说
在你的面前我就变得很笨拙
就像是一个不断忘词的歌手
我练习过彩排过
这个时候却又说不出口
你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在这一秒我一定要说
就算失败也不沈默

你你的温柔感动了我
我忍耐太久内伤太重
在豁出去的那一秒钟
却又忘词我噢噢噢

上一句好像是有关你的形容
下一句好像希望你能答应我
我练习过彩排过
这个时候却又说不出口。。。。

lolz.. feeling better now...

也许是时候忘了。

lolz. sian... nth to do.. lol.. cept for mugging..

haiz.

sian....

another entry for the black book... lolz..

till nxt time..

PES B

lolz. went the psychometric test yesterday. lolz. quite lame.. cos the 16 pf done before liao.. lolz.. and that maths was primary skool stuff... yet i dunno how to do lots of it.. i forgot how to do long division already.. lolz... how can anyone divide something by 19.. without a calcualtor.. the largest interger i could divide with is 12.. lolz.

den today went the NS medical. got a PES B. lolz. cos my "rashes are quite severe, but not severe enough to be PES C. any problem go find the camp doctor".. lolz.. which means.. i have to pass that goddamned napha now. lol.. now that my final chance is gone.... lolz..

after that went study.. now completed some of everything liao.. lolz... which is quite lame.. lolz.. cos its like not completing anything at all.. should try and finish physics tomorrow... left with i think doing the questions anyway. lolz.

anyway.. shall go bfme now.. actually still got some more to write... but that can wait...
till tomorrow.. or later.

shall continue where i left off earlier. lolz.

haha.. oh ya.. west ham completed the signing of scott parker.. lolz.. though he is not one like anderson or nani or tevez, who could capture the imagination of people.. he is definitely one good player who will replace nigel reo-coker, whom sadly is leaving, i think he is a gd player.. just got a bad patch this yr. but nonetheless.. parker and noble will be a good partnership.. and perhaps england partnership... lolz.. not likely.. but.. lolz. who knows.. west ham are also linked to almost any player who might be or will be leaving.. gudjohnsen, saviola, marlon king, viduka, yaya toure, nicky shorey, joey barton, elano, cahill, arteta, shawn wright phillips, pennant, defoe, kewell, bellamy, andy johnson, luke young, darren bent... just to name a few.. i would be happy if we could land just a few of them.. lolz..
Green
Neill A. Ferdinand Upson shorey
Elano Parker Toure Boa Morte
Ashton tevez
Imagine a 1st 11 like that... lolz.. look like something out of FM already... lolz.. mayb not a EPL winning or even challenging team.. but i think it would be good enough for at least a UEFA cup spot...

haha.. sian..

lolz.... feeling sleepy now.. shall go to slp.. lolz.. hope tomorrow morn on soccernet see something like "hammers complete triple swoop" and signs Yaya Toure, Elano and Shorey.

haha.. till nxt time

-

Magic.

lolz. everytime holiday also like that.. start to think too much cos i simply got too much time on my hands. lolz. not exactly.. but i still got some time to think.

lolz. the factual stuff 1st. lolz. ok. yesterday morn went do CIP wif Jimmy, peifang n Kailee. lolz. den i n jimmy went the temple there in the morn and owning. lolz. everyone donate sia. owning. lolz. den afternoon sibei no mood to continue liao.. so just anyhow. lol. den afternoon went out wif hoe, reub n ran. lolz. watch pirate (again for me) lolz. and thus join the gang for watching same movies twice. lolz. reub( spiderman3) ran( batman begins) Hoe (新警察故事 or something) lolz.. it was still quite nice.. can understand and remember more having seen it for the second time. lolz. and can now remember that elizabeth speech.. lolz. which i thought was damn cool. lolz... well what i could make of of loose recorded lines anyway..
"You all listen to me! LISTEN! The other ships will still be looking to us, the Black Pearl to lead, and what will they see? Frightened bilgerats aboard a derelict ship? No, they will see free men and freedom! And the enemy will see the flash of our canons and they will hear the ring of our swords and they will know what we can do! With the sweat of our brow, and the strength of our backs, and the courage in our hearts! Gentlemen, Hoist the Colours!"


haha.. and "YO HO... HOIST THE COLOURS... HOIST THE COLOURS HIGH!!.... HEAVE HO.. THIEVES AND BEGGARS.... NEVER SHALL WE DIE...."

haha.. ok.. den after tt went eat long john... which like completed a whole day of fast food for me.. lolz. mac. kfc n ljs. lolz. den after that we talked... lolz.. which somehow made me think again.. lolz...

of cos its about uni admission.. what course.. lolz.. how i wish i could have a compass like jack's that show me my hearts desire.. or the navigation charts of sao feng. which will lead me to anything i want.. lolz... sian.. now thinking of pursueing medicine. lolz. after a few revelations to me. lolz. sian.. but if that is so... there are more choices in which to make.. my father may have to go to nz to secure a local place for me there.. and i dunno... it is a great choice though.. one which i have often overlooked without thinking too much abt it. lolz. dunno..

sian... shall go to my room and think more. lolz..

till nxt time.