new yr resolution

lolz. n now comes again like always the end of yr. lolz. the time to reflect n the time to plan ahead. n the time where i try to pull myself away from the computer again. lolz

made no plans during this time of the yr last yr cos was busying wif the NZ stuff.. lolz. so had a very exciting but underachieving yr. lolz. could have been much more than this... lolz... but satistfied still... lolz...

plans for the yr ahead. have many. lolz. 1 is to get straight A's in a levels although like quite impossible given my current grades.. but 2 yrs ago i also thought 9 pts was beyond my reach. lolz. so i will do it.. can. 2 is like always to get alot of money. mayb this is the yr i strike toto. lolz. but damn sad.. an unlucky yr lies ahead for ppl of my yr cos nxt yr snake ppl fan tai shui. lolz. so muz go temple pray. lolz. last but not least. the last plan is you

nxt yrs gonna be different. lolz. no more cina. lolz. more mugging.. lolz. haiz.

haiz.. joko leavin to aust 3rd jan.. no more magic gatherings. lolz. eh jojo, meet one more time b4 u leave k. haha. n den we shall meet one yr later in army. lolz.

sian. now feeling super sian. few more days to skool reopen.. muz finish marvel ultimate alliance.. lolz. gonna reformat my com on new yrs day.. lolz. cos it slowing down like hell... think is kena virus.. lolz. or spyware.. or adware.. or all of the above. lolz.

west ham continues its jekyll and hyde form and continue to beat big teams but stumble at low teams and play football that differs so much each half you think that different teams are playing. lolz. but hope to get a win over man city for a great end to the yr. lolz. n complete the manchester double.. lolz.

forca have a challenge. match day most likely 1st wkend after skool restart. so guys be prepared. lolz. but our match fitness really damn low sia. lolz. but can. lolz.

nth much else.. till nxt time..

haiz

haiz. irritated from 2 fronts. lolz.

1st there are my cousins. n many of them are here. not tt i dun like them or anything. but i still need my time for myself.. haha. sleep not counted.

den there is my father. insisting that i study every single moment of those rare time i have for myself.. urgh. damn sianded.

haiz wad to do...


谢谢你给我一个逃离这些的地方，
但我还是拿不出勇气。。。。

holidays ending

holidays ending, entering the 2nd last wkend of hols. haha. cousins visiting. ensuring a busy end to my hols.

haha. so far studied only a little. but after skool reopen muz pia harder liao.

nth much happening. lol.
now listening to:
Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

till nxt time.

too fast

dun u feel we are going a little too fast.....

manhope chalet

lolz. manhope chalet over liao. lolz. quite fun. last nite piaed FM with reub through the whole nite. while kacauing munhoe throughout e 3 days. lolz. got new video things liao. but haven do the editing yet. lolz. the title fot e movie will be reuben's guide to defeating onslaught. lolz. super funny sia. lolz.

did rubbish for 3 days. lolz. funny sia. essence of munhoe. lolz. zhou the sleeping beauty, reuben and his ultimate snoring.xinjun doing the bed. lolz. totally broke after the chalet. think spent more than 50 bucks on it. luckily holidays are ending. if not my bank account will not sustain me much longer. lolz.

not much time of my own this few days. with the amt of visitors and other stuff happening. lolz.

haiz. hate the crowd but yet cannot tahan locking myself away. lolz.

west ham won manu last wkend. lolz. still happy till now. lolz. we always perform against the big clubs but seem to stumble on the smallest of teams. lolz. we beat arsenal n manu this season liao, while performed well against chelsea. lolz. IM FOREVER BLOWING BUBBLES!!!! WEST HAM!!!

lolz. just found out zoo tycoon2 is a real amazing game. lolz. damn fun. lolz.

nth much else...

till next time.

visits.

lolz. now tt i'm back. seems tt my life has become frequent visits to alot of ppl as well as alot of ppl visiting. lolz.

now has a cousin and a cousin of a cousin visiting my place. so is count as my cousin also. lolz. quite cute sia. lolz. but cannot target. yet. lolz. sian. nth 2 do now sia. but not in mugging mode lolz. though after my resolution i have turned down my gaming mode by alot. lolz. still dun feel like muggin all e way. lolz

manhope chalet on mon. joko cant go. sad life. lolz.

nth much else. till nct time

back from malaysia

lolz. now back from malaysia. lolz. endured more than 16 hours of car rides on the way. wtf. lolz. listening to songs the whole way. lolz. counting down the seconds slowly.

west ham finally changed a manager when i was there. after this yr's performances, could you say that this was not expected? now with curbishley in charge, i hope to see some changes and improvements. darren bent will be good at upton park, imagine a ashton, bent, tevez strikeforce, then the rest of the strikers can be retrained or sold. Reo-coker has to drop that ego of his and start performing like a captain. wingers are needed so i hope SWP and some other winger to arrive. new era? we shall see. hope it is. and it will start with Man utd. lolz. this match has more than just 3 pts in it. lolz. if we shall lose again. ray will gl me even more so this is one of what i call a 'cannot lose' game. lolz.

mon got manhope chalet afterwhich many cousins are coming. lolz. so will rarely have time to study. lolz. haven even done one subject. only did few chapters here and there. lolz. sad life sia.

nth much else.

till nxt time

17.

lolz. in 3 hrs i shall be 17. lolz. thks reubs, zhou, ran, joko, jonathan for comin along n helping me celebrate my birthday. lolz. thank you.

lolz. now again alot of reflections. lolz. 17 yrs of my life has now come an gone. lolz. think my this 17 yrs existence not wasted. lolz. mayb not everyday fulfil to full potential, but its quite enuff to me. lolz. regrets i have a few, but then again, too few to mention. Think this yr was one of the most fulfiling in the 17. lolz. i experienced many things never experienced before, 我感受到了离别的痛，也感受了欢聚的乐； 感到一个人的孤单，也明白了“朋友”的意义。lolz. most importantly this yr marks a new start for me, lolz and made new friends such as ray, addi, ronghua etc. lolz. thank you all for making my year a meaningful one. lolz.

sorry. still can't bring myself to say it. haiz. i...... haiz. can't. lolz. can't sia. sad life. maybe next time. guess i am still not ready to do so. 爱真的需要勇气。。。

lolz 2hr 24mins to go. lolz.


happy birthday Diego.


till nxt time

2 more days

lolz. 2 more days.

dwnlded e deathnote comics and started reading them. lolz. quite nice sia. EE. lolz. misa is cute while hot. lolz. lolz. think comics r much better than movies. lolz. can think more. lolz.

2 more days. lolz. can't wait. lolz.

till nxt time

back.

lolz. back from bangkok yesterday. was down with some sort of food poisoning or gastric flu or something. lolz. sad life sia. there like nth much. lolz. bought aimar and sweinsteiger jersey. lolz.

sian. just came back from bangkok going to malaysia again. lolz. sucks. lolz. damn sian sia. lolz. sad life.

dunno wad whu doing rite now. lolz. quite loser sia. lolz. now in relegation zone. lolz. reliving the norwich experience. lolz. but at least whu aren't bottom all the way till last 5 games of the season. lolz. but norwich n whu are obviously different quality. lolz. they better improve themselves dramatically. lolz. or at least survive this season with a respectable position. lolz. at least 2-3 positions above drop zone. lolz. this sucks man... lolz.

lolz. life getting suckier. lolz. this sux.. lolz...

haiz....

till nxt time. 4 more days.

thai

lolz. going to thai now. now @ the budjet terminal stoning. lolz. cos parents dunno y come so early. lolz. sian. gonna be out of touch again. lolz. hope west ham wins everton today... lolz..

nth much else... went enoch's concert yesterday.. lolz.. never gimme tt sort of inspiration to wanna go on stage to sing again. lolz...

till nxt time