new yr resolution

lolz. n now comes again like always the end of yr. lolz. the time to reflect n the time to plan ahead. n the time where i try to pull myself away from the computer again. lolz

made no plans during this time of the yr last yr cos was busying wif the NZ stuff.. lolz. so had a very exciting but underachieving yr. lolz. could have been much more than this... lolz... but satistfied still... lolz...

plans for the yr ahead. have many. lolz. 1 is to get straight A's in a levels although like quite impossible given my current grades.. but 2 yrs ago i also thought 9 pts was beyond my reach. lolz. so i will do it.. can. 2 is like always to get alot of money. mayb this is the yr i strike toto. lolz. but damn sad.. an unlucky yr lies ahead for ppl of my yr cos nxt yr snake ppl fan tai shui. lolz. so muz go temple pray. lolz. last but not least. the last plan is you

nxt yrs gonna be different. lolz. no more cina. lolz. more mugging.. lolz. haiz.

haiz.. joko leavin to aust 3rd jan.. no more magic gatherings. lolz. eh jojo, meet one more time b4 u leave k. haha. n den we shall meet one yr later in army. lolz.

sian. now feeling super sian. few more days to skool reopen.. muz finish marvel ultimate alliance.. lolz. gonna reformat my com on new yrs day.. lolz. cos it slowing down like hell... think is kena virus.. lolz. or spyware.. or adware.. or all of the above. lolz.

west ham continues its jekyll and hyde form and continue to beat big teams but stumble at low teams and play football that differs so much each half you think that different teams are playing. lolz. but hope to get a win over man city for a great end to the yr. lolz. n complete the manchester double.. lolz.

forca have a challenge. match day most likely 1st wkend after skool restart. so guys be prepared. lolz. but our match fitness really damn low sia. lolz. but can. lolz.

nth much else.. till nxt time..

haiz

haiz. irritated from 2 fronts. lolz.

1st there are my cousins. n many of them are here. not tt i dun like them or anything. but i still need my time for myself.. haha. sleep not counted.

den there is my father. insisting that i study every single moment of those rare time i have for myself.. urgh. damn sianded.

haiz wad to do...


谢谢你给我一个逃离这些的地方，
但我还是拿不出勇气。。。。

holidays ending

holidays ending, entering the 2nd last wkend of hols. haha. cousins visiting. ensuring a busy end to my hols.

haha. so far studied only a little. but after skool reopen muz pia harder liao.

nth much happening. lol.
now listening to:
Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

till nxt time.

too fast

dun u feel we are going a little too fast.....

manhope chalet

lolz. manhope chalet over liao. lolz. quite fun. last nite piaed FM with reub through the whole nite. while kacauing munhoe throughout e 3 days. lolz. got new video things liao. but haven do the editing yet. lolz. the title fot e movie will be reuben's guide to defeating onslaught. lolz. super funny sia. lolz.

did rubbish for 3 days. lolz. funny sia. essence of munhoe. lolz. zhou the sleeping beauty, reuben and his ultimate snoring.xinjun doing the bed. lolz. totally broke after the chalet. think spent more than 50 bucks on it. luckily holidays are ending. if not my bank account will not sustain me much longer. lolz.

not much time of my own this few days. with the amt of visitors and other stuff happening. lolz.

haiz. hate the crowd but yet cannot tahan locking myself away. lolz.

west ham won manu last wkend. lolz. still happy till now. lolz. we always perform against the big clubs but seem to stumble on the smallest of teams. lolz. we beat arsenal n manu this season liao, while performed well against chelsea. lolz. IM FOREVER BLOWING BUBBLES!!!! WEST HAM!!!

lolz. just found out zoo tycoon2 is a real amazing game. lolz. damn fun. lolz.

nth much else...

till next time.

visits.

lolz. now tt i'm back. seems tt my life has become frequent visits to alot of ppl as well as alot of ppl visiting. lolz.

now has a cousin and a cousin of a cousin visiting my place. so is count as my cousin also. lolz. quite cute sia. lolz. but cannot target. yet. lolz. sian. nth 2 do now sia. but not in mugging mode lolz. though after my resolution i have turned down my gaming mode by alot. lolz. still dun feel like muggin all e way. lolz

manhope chalet on mon. joko cant go. sad life. lolz.

nth much else. till nct time

back from malaysia

lolz. now back from malaysia. lolz. endured more than 16 hours of car rides on the way. wtf. lolz. listening to songs the whole way. lolz. counting down the seconds slowly.

west ham finally changed a manager when i was there. after this yr's performances, could you say that this was not expected? now with curbishley in charge, i hope to see some changes and improvements. darren bent will be good at upton park, imagine a ashton, bent, tevez strikeforce, then the rest of the strikers can be retrained or sold. Reo-coker has to drop that ego of his and start performing like a captain. wingers are needed so i hope SWP and some other winger to arrive. new era? we shall see. hope it is. and it will start with Man utd. lolz. this match has more than just 3 pts in it. lolz. if we shall lose again. ray will gl me even more so this is one of what i call a 'cannot lose' game. lolz.

mon got manhope chalet afterwhich many cousins are coming. lolz. so will rarely have time to study. lolz. haven even done one subject. only did few chapters here and there. lolz. sad life sia.

nth much else.

till nxt time

17.

lolz. in 3 hrs i shall be 17. lolz. thks reubs, zhou, ran, joko, jonathan for comin along n helping me celebrate my birthday. lolz. thank you.

lolz. now again alot of reflections. lolz. 17 yrs of my life has now come an gone. lolz. think my this 17 yrs existence not wasted. lolz. mayb not everyday fulfil to full potential, but its quite enuff to me. lolz. regrets i have a few, but then again, too few to mention. Think this yr was one of the most fulfiling in the 17. lolz. i experienced many things never experienced before, 我感受到了离别的痛，也感受了欢聚的乐； 感到一个人的孤单，也明白了“朋友”的意义。lolz. most importantly this yr marks a new start for me, lolz and made new friends such as ray, addi, ronghua etc. lolz. thank you all for making my year a meaningful one. lolz.

sorry. still can't bring myself to say it. haiz. i...... haiz. can't. lolz. can't sia. sad life. maybe next time. guess i am still not ready to do so. 爱真的需要勇气。。。

lolz 2hr 24mins to go. lolz.


happy birthday Diego.


till nxt time

2 more days

lolz. 2 more days.

dwnlded e deathnote comics and started reading them. lolz. quite nice sia. EE. lolz. misa is cute while hot. lolz. lolz. think comics r much better than movies. lolz. can think more. lolz.

2 more days. lolz. can't wait. lolz.

till nxt time

back.

lolz. back from bangkok yesterday. was down with some sort of food poisoning or gastric flu or something. lolz. sad life sia. there like nth much. lolz. bought aimar and sweinsteiger jersey. lolz.

sian. just came back from bangkok going to malaysia again. lolz. sucks. lolz. damn sian sia. lolz. sad life.

dunno wad whu doing rite now. lolz. quite loser sia. lolz. now in relegation zone. lolz. reliving the norwich experience. lolz. but at least whu aren't bottom all the way till last 5 games of the season. lolz. but norwich n whu are obviously different quality. lolz. they better improve themselves dramatically. lolz. or at least survive this season with a respectable position. lolz. at least 2-3 positions above drop zone. lolz. this sucks man... lolz.

lolz. life getting suckier. lolz. this sux.. lolz...

haiz....

till nxt time. 4 more days.

thai

lolz. going to thai now. now @ the budjet terminal stoning. lolz. cos parents dunno y come so early. lolz. sian. gonna be out of touch again. lolz. hope west ham wins everton today... lolz..

nth much else... went enoch's concert yesterday.. lolz.. never gimme tt sort of inspiration to wanna go on stage to sing again. lolz...

till nxt time

back to old ways?

lolz. started FMing again. lolz. but think definitely not back to old ways cos still studying. hope i don't go back. lolz

just now went tm buy zhou's bdae present. lolz. damn sehded. lolz.

tomolo going noch's concert. lolz. 2 days later going thai. lolz. finally some much needed excitement into my life.

decided to allow myself 2 ingame month a day. which will be roughly 1.5 hrs. lolz. a man can't mug too much or he will die. lolz.

nth much else. till nxt time.

遇见

聽見　冬天的離開
我在某年某月醒過來
我想　我等　我期待
未來卻不能因此安排

陰天　傍晚　車窗外
未來有一個人在等待
向左　向右　向前看
愛要拐幾個彎才來

我遇見誰　會有怎樣的對白
我等的人　他在多遠的未來
我聽見風　來自地鐵和人海
我排著隊　拿著愛的號碼牌

我往前飛　飛過一片時間海
我們也常在愛情裡受傷害
我看著路　夢的入口有點窄
我遇見你是最美麗的意外

終有一天　我的謎底會解開

lolz. my story through songs. part 1. decided to tell my life through songs now .lolz. n this is my 1st part. lolz.

minor steps to major changes

lolz. started the changes. lolz. at least now neva wake up n use the com the first thing i do until the last thing i do.. lolz. like going through yellow ribbon project sia. going through rehab from fm and other games. lolz. lolz. now like my video like tt.. lolz... pain.. suffering.. cold.. lolz.. restlessness.. but starting to open the books again. lolz. trying to at least.. lolz.

made a few minor tweaks to the blogskin, lolz. changed the colour. lolz

Well I'm just a music man,
melodie 's so far my best friend
but my words are calling out longer
I reveal my heart to you and
hope that you'll believe it's true, 'cause
Words, don't come easy to me

but sometimes when i wanna say them. somehow she is not there.

lolz. till nxt time

weekend roundup

lolz. not the worst but certainly not the best weekend. west ham won 1-0. lolz. think it was quite tyco. watched the manu chelski match yesterday. lolz. thought manu played well but sadly dun haf bust up as i was expecting, hoped to see million red cards given out. after thet match played magic n pangsehed 4h lolz. magic more fun. lolz.

now like nth to write sia. lolz.

today went 4h chalet. lol. sian like sian. lolz. whole afternoon only i nehneh n shukit stoning around in the chalet. lolz. sad life sia.

christmas coming. lolz. like always, it mean almost nth to me. and somehow i almost always hate tt day. everytime on tt day sure kena scolded or kena something suay. or not is on the 8 hr journey to penang. lolz. only great thing that happen near tt time is the football... still remember last time was arsenal vs spurs i think.. the 5-4 match. lolz..




Yes I saw you at the station
Long distance smiles
You were leaving for the weekend
Catching the four fifty-five

With your new friend for the season
Another sad-eyed clown
Helping to the seeing that your fantasies go down

And I have to wonder to myself
Why you have to go so far
Drifting with life's daydreams
Trying to play the star
I still remember when you said
"Baby, now let's get away"
And I followed you like a schoolboy
I guess that's part of the game

Now you call me say you're sorry
Give me long distance love
You say you'd like to see me
Maybe just for a while

And you'd meet me at the station
There on platform nine
And we'd leave for the weekend
Riding the four fifty-five

But I've played this scene too many times
To ever feel the part again
I don't really want to fake it
I already know the end
So bye bye, Cin-Cinderella
Everything just has to change
And the midnight blues are calling
I guess that's part of the game


now suddenly like this song though heard it a million times before last time. lolz...

nth much else.. till nxt time

entropy.

lolz. just finished the chapter on entropy. lolz. found out my life is damn like it, the universe, and all its happenings, tend to a condition of greater disorderliness. lolz. tt's wad my life is now. lolz. one look at my room and u will noe.. entropy damn high, but to me tt is ordered chaos, so ppl dunno where i put stuff cept myself, lolz. many a time i kek my mother cos she try to find my stuff cannot find in my room only for me to get it with the greatest of ease. on the other hand, if she or anyone pack my room, including myself, i will wake up the next day and struggle to find anything, lolz. tt's me. high entropy guy. lolz. super disorder. lolz.

read some comics juz now, universe x. damn nice. comics set me thinking. lolz. was like dreaming of powers again. lolz.

sung karaoke with parents juz now at home. quite fun, lolz. last time in choir also neva enjoy singing so much. lolz. suddenly liked singing like 3 mths ago. tokin bout choir. lolz. what great memories it bring. forced into it. the counselling centre incident. the legacy of manhope. the losing and regaining of the syf gold. playing football on padang with DHS choir. getting chased of it. seventy-six thrombones, talimu, cantate.. lolz. and it all started when we got forced into choir, lolz.. damn funny sia. still remember last time munhoe most anti choir one everywk try quit, now almost every wk still go back choir see. damn funny sia. choir days were great, how good will it be if i can get back to sec 3 sec 4. lolz. dun nid like now so sad.

lolz.. nth much else.. going into middle earth soon..

New beginning.

lolz. decided to start afresh. lolz. new blog. lolz. to remember this new start. lolz. remember the last was started like 1/10/2004... so its like quite long liao.. n it now takes damn long to republish. lolz. so decided to change. lolz. but abit 舍不得 that blog... lolz.. emperorofhuang.. lolz. damn power sia tt name.. lolz.. ppl say tt name damn ego but lolz.. i like.. lolz.. still remember my old nicknames since primary skool. lolz.. 1st one was fire dragon.. lolz. primary skool like everyone also dragon... snakey dragon, lightning dragon.. lolz. .etc... but before that i used to like calling myself 包青天. lolz. i got a pencil case with it written all over to prove it... lolz... after which i adopted the nickname coldfire.. lolz.. tt one super seh sia.. lolz.. now still uses it sometimes.. lolz..then comes a period during my lower sec in which my obsessions with names and titles begin... lolz.. went through thousands of name sia... Timeshadow, inzaghi, moonshine. but the best one was The Emperor of Huang, as i started thinking about what if i was a king of a country. lolz. and my great dream of the 3 golden islands.. lolz.. which was my first ever post at emperorofhuang's. lolz.

nth much actually.. lolz. today was quite uneventful. lolz.. visited NLB. but nothing good there.. all the comic i like read before liao.. lolz.. oh ya.. got landmark today.. finally touched my notes once again... lolz.. chem.. lolz.. wanna get back what i supposed to get for what i regard as my best subject.. lolz..

West ham takes on Sheffield United in what may be a potential relegation 6 pointer. lolz. which i certainly hope not. west ham will put the troubling and stressful weeks behind them as they completes their take over and their season has actually just started. great performances against arsenal and chelsea in the past month, while sheffield will come to west ham after getting thrashed by chelsea and beaten by manu. west ham to take this 3 points with a 2-0 win and i hope no other teams near them win and thus start our climb up the table again.

till nxt time...

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