Saturday 25 October 2008

Emo is contagious. Seriously.

Friday 24 October 2008

In the cabinet and the ceiling boards.

There's a ghost in the medical centre, no doubts about that. Its not a banshee, ghoulish kind of ghost. He's a poltergeist, and a he. There aren't many she-poltergeists around. He's the one who messes up the dockets, the one who makes drugs go missing. He is the one that sends his phantoms to report sick while the doctor isn't in and he's the one who rings up the medical centre in the dead of the night. He makes the air conditioners leak and the rations to be never enough. And that's just listing a few.

Without being seen, he's able to relate and touch all of us, hypnotizing us to sleep, calling from the back of our heads to ask us to play flash games that with our usual selves, we would not even take a look. Not with the myriads of other forms of entertainment available. He asks us to take a break in the busiest hour, to go to the canteen or to blend in as a sickbay patient; to hide in the pantry or behind the cupboards. And sometimes, we don't even feel him. We do not acknowledge his existence, preferring to attribute those actions to our slackness and our unwillingness to be here. Which leads to complaining about the system, the country, the government, our birthplace, our lives, our existence... And sometimes you just wonder, if all this was too part of his plans, and you ask questions about his existence, Is he here? When is he here? Why is he here? And as you ask, he slowly vanishes and fades into the surroundings, and you wouldn't feel him and the need to understand his existence anymore. And you go on with your days and your troubles and your attempts to slack. Not knowing, No. Never knowing that he, the ghost of the medical centre, is behind everything.

There's a ghost in the medical center, and he's here, in the cabinets and the ceiling boards.


-Was inspired by The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman and thus wrote a short story bout the ghost of the medical centre. haha. part 1 of my would be short story collections named as my title for this post.

Sunday 19 October 2008

Pork and Beans

The wkend hasn't been quite as busy as i thought it would be. With quite a few couple of hours here and there where i could just slack around and do nothing. Watched Tropic Thunder, which was quite crappy actually. and then Max Payne today, which was worse. haha.

nth much really happened actually. so..


They say
I need some Rogaine
To put in my hair
Work it out at the gym
To fit my underwear
Oakley makes the shades
That transform a tool
You'd hate
Ffor the kids to think
That you lost your cool

I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think

Everyone likes to dance
To a happy song
(Hey, hey)
With a catchy chorus and beat
So they can sing along
(Hey, hey)
Timbaland knows the way
To reach the top of the charts
Maybe if I work with him
I can perfect the art

I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think

No I don't care
I don't care

I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think
Totally different?

Saturday 18 October 2008

ahead.

Well. It has all the makings of a really busy wkend. With Uni application, Movies, Lunch, Relatives, DYB, and friends all on the checklist.

Hopefully its only this wkend.

Just restored my PSP to working condition. haha. hopefully it doesn't break down on me again. but with the recent PSP thefts in camp, i am not that sure bout bringing her and Apple in now. haha. but i need my entertainment man. haha. esp with 3 days outfield coming up this monday. followed by 2 more days of so right after deepavali. haha. damn this sucks man. haha.

On other updates, Camp internet still remains unfixed. and i got another half a day off!. haha.

that' all for now. longer post after the busy wkend. haha.

Wednesday 15 October 2008

Why doctor?

Well. It has not been spectacular seeing that my camp internet have chosen such a wonderful time to breakdown. making me out of reach to the world for 2 days. haha. was kinda inspired on sunday and actually wanted to post something, but well, the internet was down and well, haha. I forgot what i really wanted to post about.

But during the wkend, after watching The last king of Scotland, i actually had a thought. or perhaps a sudden inspiration. Through the months and events i had somewhat forgotten why do i want to be a doctor, or perhaps that itself was never really truely understood even by myself. Once, yes, i admit, it seemed a pretty decent money making path that leads to stability and eventually, a good life. And i wanted to be a psychiatrist, a child psychiatrist, to 'change the potential in those with the most potential' as i once wrote. And i still believe so, that it is and perhaps will be a good path. And i still believe that. yes, if cancer or angina is gonna claim your life, sooner or later it will. But fight it, we must, for its in the fights that we realise humanity. But i'll leave that to the experts. And instead, i'll make sure that the fights i win shall be those that shall last longer, to change the potential in the most potential.

But recent events and experiences may perhaps changed my viewon that slightly. Serving as a medic, i guess i've gained an insight, however small it is, into life in the medical proffession and as a doctor. And yeah, i guess the reason after all this to want to pursue an education in medicine is to one day to 'save lives'. Cliched it is. But i experienced the adrenaline rush in the emergency room myself, and there's no greater excitement than that. And the relief that comes with the news that the patient is stable? Awesome.

But what i want now is actually to be a 'travelling doctor'. in inverted commas for i don't know if there's a possibility of such a job now with the numerous restrictions around the world. But the basic plan is this. I work in a country, say somewhere in Africa for say a period of 3-6 months, and in that period earn enough for my ticket to my next destination say, Sri Lanka, and there for 3 months again and so on so forth. Until my mind says that it had enough of travelling. And then i'll find somewhere to settle down and perhaps. retire. haha. sounds far fetched and crazy, but i think it shall be a cool life if it ever was lived.

And so that's it for now. kinda out of ideas but shall post more when that comes.

or when the wkend comes. whichever comes first.

Friday 10 October 2008

God damn the updates.

Well. Its been a long time since i last posted. or so it feels. But hasn't been truly in the mood so pardon the absense. And well, lots of things happened during this time. West ham didn't win last week, and my camp pass and 11B was found (in my wallet) and i completed Star wars and Final fantasy tactics.

Didn't go out today and instead sat the whole night here, in front of the com. Watched Death Race, and had my daily dose of action. And proceeded on to read up on Uni stuff again. which leaves me slightly jaded and typing here. well, I wouldn't have been doing this right now if i had just been a little more prepared for my interview, but well, what's past is past and i'm not gonna think of What If's, for it shall be endless, that will be. Just kinda hope i still can get into medicine, after all, without preparing, i'm now much more prepared than i was. Though i hate my army life, life in the medical center had indeed, prepared me and gave me insights into the medical proffession, and hell yeah, i'm gonna sit in the Consultation Room one day.

On another note. Have a great evening.

And god damn the updates.

Sunday 5 October 2008

Mamma Mia

Well. Mamma Mia! was well, musical. I mean full of music. very. and sometimes the music seemed to forced in, like the movie has no link and just because they had to add that ABBA song they had to force a way in.

Well, west ham is forcing their way to the top of the table as i am typing this. Hope west ham can win this. by a big margin, coupled by a draw at chelsea and a loss at liverpool will see as top of the premier league. haha. hopefully they would have won the match by the time i booked in.

Well. next wkend is pay day. looking forward to it already.

Crazy hours.

Well. have been going out till kinda crazy hours recently. as my freedom continue to be limited by army.

Watched League of Extraordinary gentlemen. haha. kinda a cool show, dun get how it get rated 16% at rotten tomatoes. com'on, its definitely better than shrek 3 or whatever shows like those.

After several long posts a few weeks ago, recent post have been relatively short. Not that i've not been thinking. just dun really have the time and strength to phrase them into proper sentences here. Should take a break sometime soon and stay at home for a day or something. But then, that'll be wasting perfectly good day.

But this question have been kinda troubling, nah, stuck in my head after last night talking rubbish with reub ran and joko. Imagine you have a million dollars, and you have just 3 hours to spend it, on whatever you want, but, whatever you buy, be it a car, a house or a plane, it'll cease to be yours after that 3 hours, what will you buy? kinda interested in what everyone wants for that 3 hours. I dun even know what me myself will spend it on.

With that, i end my post today.

till nxt time.

Saturday 4 October 2008

fine end.

Well. Its been a fine end to a troubled week.

went out with reub, ran and joko just now and talked quite abit of rubbish down at pasir ris park. haha. emo. if you may. but the mood wasn't too much so. haha. cnograts joko. haha.

anyway. got my camp pass back after what have been quite a fiasco.

more to come when i am more awake after i sleep.

till next time.

btw. good luck once again.

Wednesday 1 October 2008

And sometimes, it feels as though even Life is helpless in the numerous situations we find ourselves in. It seems as though Lady Luck, or Mr. Disaster, or some other being are playing a game not unlike dungeon and dragons, as described by Terry Pratchett, And this world is just a board to them. And we are just not in control of the die.