Emergency.

Well. It has been a great week i would say. despite some lonely days and nights in my new camp. yeah. I'm kinda liking my job now that i grasp what is it about.

Sure, most of the time i am just standing around triaging and registering patients. And even more of the time i am idling around. But yeah. once stuff happens the job suddenly becomes important and that is what happened when there was an emergency case this week. and i was in the ambulance. can't really describe my feelings but yeah. i would say that i would have aced my medicine interview have i had this experience. I mean, the way at which an emergency is handled and the responsibility of the MO and the way it inspired me is in no way small. The way at which the MO has to respond within seconds to save someone's life and the aura of command he gives as he handles the treatment room and the way the MO fight's with death over a person's life and refusing to give in to death's threats and bribes. And refusing to slacken until the patient is stable and finally satisfaction when one life saved. That i guess is the job of a doctor, its not only changing life, Its negotiating them from death, refusing to let go even under pressure. Its not only earning pay, but of self satisfaction, and the joy of the kinsmen of the patient, eagerly awaiting outside the treatment room. Its not repayment of services recieved, but the replanting of seeds of goodwill sown in us by the huge trees of men before us. Its the engineering of society,preventing bridges and links from falling apart. Its the gardening of humanity, saving the roots and protecting the new fruits of the tree of life. Its the pastor of science, making miracles from scientific roots, uniting it with religion and faith. And yeah. though i may not get into the appeal to NUS. My mind is now pretty much really set on medicine, and seeing the MO perform makes me realise how far i am from being a true doctor. I mean, there i was panicking over the person's life and to be able to control not only himself, but a whole team of medics is something applaudable. yeah. he may not be the best doctor around, but he has certainly performed his duties well. So.. yeah. I'm gonna go medicine.. whatever it takes.

haha.

On another note.
Miss you dear. :)