Blues all over again

well. just returned from class outing and after talking bout army. it made me blue once again. maybe its cos of my tiredness. finally realised why army is so painful afterall. Its because its not a general pain or general problem like say pollution or bad politics but its a personal, close to heart problem, a selfish one if you put it in the army terms. So i am i guess. Selfish. Its like when you wake up there in the morn by the glaring white lights, and then you realise youre not at home. like in 'green green grass of home'

and then i awake and look around me,
of four grey walls that surround me,
and then i realise,
that i was only dreaming.
for there's a guard,
and there's the sad old padre,
arm in arm we'll walk the daybreak,
again i'll touch, the green green grass of home




yeah. and i'll be in today later. so yeah.

but one of those days inside i was getting philosophical, and i thought about this. 'Forgive and forget' they say, but is that ever possible. I mean to forgive, you have to remember you forgiven the person, and to say you have forgot the incident means that you do not remember it, but it doesn't mean you have forgiven him. Or put it this way, if you forgot something, don't you have to judge it again everytime you remember it? Say someone punched your face. You could just forgive him, and remember you did so. Or you could forget about it. And everytime you remember he punched your face, do you not have to judge whether to forgive him again? And don't you have to decide one day whether you forgive him or not. And if that is so, isn't 'forgive or forget' a little more accurate or just forgiveness alone would do the trick. was reading this book, 'the pig that wants to be eaten' and well it got me quite philosophical, thinking about life, the dreaming and everthing.

and with that. tt's all for now.

till nxt time.


glad you are there, rara avis. :)